skaikrudad | ic inbox for duplicity

oh yeah?
thats great.

[ Murphy's assumed Raven told Bellamy how much of a dick that he is. ]

here just read this and then u can ream into me.

[ Attached is a screenshot of the conversation. Obviously not the beginning but where things start to get messy. ]

[ He glances at the screenshot at first but hesitates to read it. ]

Are you sure I should read this? Maybe Raven saw it as a private conversation.

[ He's saving you from fucking this up even more, Murphy. ]

[ Murphy probably should have thought about that. He just thought it would be easier than trying to explain it. Murphy wants an honest opinion because how Murphy views things are a little skewed. ]

idk its not like its anything personal.
i told raven what i told u about johanna
raven told me not to do anything stupid
that shes working on something
something im clearly unaware about but i guess it only matters if shes in the know of everything
idk i felt like she was on this pedestal talking down at me
and then she said she needed me and said how what she was doing was pretty boring
idk i took that as im only needed cos she was bored
she told me to fuck off
and do what i want because thats what im good at right
then said i just want a pity party "for a girl im supposedly friends with"
and yeah
now shes going to stay with u for the night

[ That's quite the chunk of text. ]

Since when do you need to know everything Raven is doing? And don't give me that "since I'm her dom" bullshit. Emma doesn't know everything I'm doing.

We had to be around each other back home because we had no choice. We were stuck with each other. We have a choice here. Raven doesn't have to hang around with you here, but she does because she wants to and I doubt it's out of boredom. I'm pretty sure you give her a headache more than you cure her boredom. Look at it this way, maybe you're the person she looks forward to seeing after a boring day. How's that a bad thing?

Maybe she needs to be more sensitive about you losing Johanna but she could be jealous of how much her absence affected you. It doesn't help that this is the same person you never mentioned you were going to contract with as well as her.

[ Sorry, Bellamy. ]

idk since i have to tell her what im doing?
cos like starting a rebellion is kina idk something id like to know about?
im not saying i need a record of everytime she goes to the bathroom.
being with someone 24/7 isnt my issue
i fucked off to the other side of the ark for 6 months before i came here

but yet she doesnt have to tell me what shes planning?
but i need to mind my own business right?

Okay. I get the double standards thing.

[ Even if contracting with someone is different to working towards a rebellion. ]

It could be the early stages of something. She was probably going to tell you at some point. [ Bellamy didn't know either, but he's not kicking up a fuss about it. He's actually pleased for her. ]

Is the issue that she didn't tell you sooner or you feeling left out?

[ Well, when she puts it like that... ]

I have plenty of beer in the fridge.

You're the best.

Well, technically Emma's the best for buying it, but if you say so.

I mean letting me stay, too.

But I'll thank her, too.

[ It's a reach but not a long one at least. ]

do u really want me to say?

[ Yes, he feels left out. He feels useless. He feels like how he did in the Ark. There's nothing for him to do here. Nothing productive in getting any of them out. ]