[clarke does think there is some hint of truth in his response but she has a gut feeling that there's more to than that. she didn't need time to process it all and if anything being left alone was the last thing she wanted given that was literally what her life has been like after praimfaya]
No. [she is firm with her words as she shakes her head, refusing to accept whatever excuse he expected her to believe about this. she'd tried to brush it off earlier that maybe she had been overthinking things but his words only seem to trigger reminding her of her own similar actions from a time that feels like forever ago and it heightened her concerns making her question everything that happened in the time they did reunite. hearing his response that follows her question leaves her feeling unsatisfied as well because that was not what she meant at all so her words that follow apply twofold towards most of his response] Bellamy. Please don't give me that— from the fact you're pushing me away, I can tell there's more than what you're telling me.
[there is a moment where she idly wonder if bellamy even realizes how much she missed him, thought about him every single day and tried to hold onto hope because of him. she doesn't dare voice the entirety of that or really have the courage to tell him that especially when it seems like he is avoiding her for some reason. she just does the next best thing in that she reaches out to interlace her hands with his giving a slight reassuring squeeze. it's understandable that he wouldn't be okay with being stuck here for that long because she can tell she would feel the same if their roles were reversed in her short time being here. her heart aches for him already and she wishes that she could just fix this and make it better for him but technically that wasn't what she was really asking him either despite how that was part of it]
I don't think anyone would be okay with any of this but you know that's not what I meant. [she purposely doesn't comment on his mention of doing what it takes to survive here because the whole thing with the contract and meeting her quota is something she has been trying to ignore and maybe feeling a bit self conscious about]
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No. [she is firm with her words as she shakes her head, refusing to accept whatever excuse he expected her to believe about this. she'd tried to brush it off earlier that maybe she had been overthinking things but his words only seem to trigger reminding her of her own similar actions from a time that feels like forever ago and it heightened her concerns making her question everything that happened in the time they did reunite. hearing his response that follows her question leaves her feeling unsatisfied as well because that was not what she meant at all so her words that follow apply twofold towards most of his response] Bellamy. Please don't give me that— from the fact you're pushing me away, I can tell there's more than what you're telling me.
[there is a moment where she idly wonder if bellamy even realizes how much she missed him, thought about him every single day and tried to hold onto hope because of him. she doesn't dare voice the entirety of that or really have the courage to tell him that especially when it seems like he is avoiding her for some reason. she just does the next best thing in that she reaches out to interlace her hands with his giving a slight reassuring squeeze. it's understandable that he wouldn't be okay with being stuck here for that long because she can tell she would feel the same if their roles were reversed in her short time being here. her heart aches for him already and she wishes that she could just fix this and make it better for him but technically that wasn't what she was really asking him either despite how that was part of it]
I don't think anyone would be okay with any of this but you know that's not what I meant. [she purposely doesn't comment on his mention of doing what it takes to survive here because the whole thing with the contract and meeting her quota is something she has been trying to ignore and maybe feeling a bit self conscious about]