No one wants to be here, Bell. You can't blame yourself for that.
There's a lot you don't know. We both need to keep an eye on her. I know she isn't the same person now-- this place just has the possibility of bringing out the worst in us.
As long as she's got you, I hope. I'm glad you're trying. [Not that she blames the Bellamy in her time for not. But things can be different here. She does know that. Octavia hasn't lived through enough things, and she isn't likely to gain the power that she had back home.]
I don't know what you're trying to say she's capable of in the future... but I need to focus on how she is now. If I show her how much I love her, she'll be okay. I can be a better brother.
Hey, you don't have to convince me. Octavia's at least been honest about who she is and what she's capable of, okay? Other people seemingly get passes. I'm just going off of decisions you've already made-- in the future for you.
It’s not that I don’t trust her. I’ve seen what she’s capable of. The Octavia Blake from our time can take this place to its knees and not blink an eye at the bodies that lie in her wake.
Including yours.
If you want me to tell you more, I can. But what I know is we can’t let her become the person she has in the future.
It's not like I haven't seen her kill before. If she was okay with killing me, she would have done it a long time ago. [ Like after Lincoln was murdered. ]
Whatever she becomes is probably my fault. I can't do anything about the future but I can can be there for her now.
I'm not saying you haven't. But you still haven't lived through it, yet. You haven't seen. And I'm not saying you came to the decision you did lightly. It's eating you up. We're all just trying to survive, and you do what you do which is make sure we're all okay even though I don't think any of us are.
[But that's what Bellamy does.]
It isn't your fault. We all have done what we needed to survive. You're sister is just honest about it.
I'm just saying as much as I want her to take this place out, we have to be careful.
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I'm glad you're trusting people again though.
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I guess. There are still good people out there. And this place does a number on us all.
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I've got news too. You'll never guess who showed up...
Octavia.
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How are you? With her here?
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She misses Lincoln... not because he's gone. He's still alive for her.
I've missed her so much, you have no idea.
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I’m glad you have her.
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I know she's not a kid, she can take care of herself, but you'll tell me if you hear her getting into anything dangerous?
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There's a lot you don't know. We both need to keep an eye on her. I know she isn't the same person now-- this place just has the possibility of bringing out the worst in us.
[And she knows what that looks like for Octavia.]
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This is my second shot with her. She won't go off the rails. I'll make sure of it.
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As long as she's got you, I hope. I'm glad you're trying. [Not that she blames the Bellamy in her time for not. But things can be different here. She does know that. Octavia hasn't lived through enough things, and she isn't likely to gain the power that she had back home.]
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[He exiled her after all.]
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Do I trust her in the future?
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Including yours.
If you want me to tell you more, I can. But what I know is we can’t let her become the person she has in the future.
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Whatever she becomes is probably my fault. I can't do anything about the future but I can can be there for her now.
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[But that's what Bellamy does.]
It isn't your fault. We all have done what we needed to survive. You're sister is just honest about it.
I'm just saying as much as I want her to take this place out, we have to be careful.
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I don't like talking about my sister like she's a ticking bomb... but I'll bear in mind what you've said.
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Let's just hope it will be different here.