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Oh, that's— [clarke hadn't meant to say that aloud but she does smile back and in remembering they were still holding hands, she lets her fingers brush against his while gently squeezing his hand again] I kind of got into the habit of keeping count so that I wouldn't lose track of time. [there were times that days happened to blur together for her especially when she was running low on food and water feeling like she wasn't going to make it. between keeping count though and calling bellamy everyday it was what kept her moving forward.
it was inevitable hearing bellamy apologize to her about never hearing her radio calls and she had expected as much because she knew he'd feel bad but in looking towards him, she tries to reassure him that it was okay and that she got through this all because of him] Bellamy. It's not your fault, you don't have to apologize for that either. Maybe it didn't reach you but just talking to you helped even if I had to pretend sometimes that you were listening on the other end.
[clarke was kind of relieved though that he didn't tell her she was crazy or having those one sided conversation on the radio with him at least and she can't help but laughing though when he jokes about her talking to a pet rock instead] Yeah. I guess that would definitely be crazy, huh?
it was inevitable hearing bellamy apologize to her about never hearing her radio calls and she had expected as much because she knew he'd feel bad but in looking towards him, she tries to reassure him that it was okay and that she got through this all because of him] Bellamy. It's not your fault, you don't have to apologize for that either. Maybe it didn't reach you but just talking to you helped even if I had to pretend sometimes that you were listening on the other end.
[clarke was kind of relieved though that he didn't tell her she was crazy or having those one sided conversation on the radio with him at least and she can't help but laughing though when he jokes about her talking to a pet rock instead] Yeah. I guess that would definitely be crazy, huh?
Hey, princess.
You still at the pool? I was thinking of checking it out myself.
You still at the pool? I was thinking of checking it out myself.
As much as I hate missing the chance to watch everyone stare at you while you're shirtless, I just came in.
Your friend Clarke was out there. She ended up in the chair next to mine.
Your friend Clarke was out there. She ended up in the chair next to mine.
You're not joining in?
[ And he can't help but wince to himself when she brings up who she bumped into. ]
Oh... Let me guess, it didn't go well. [ He gets the feeling she'd still be by the pool if it went swimmingly (no pun intended). ] You okay?
[ And he can't help but wince to himself when she brings up who she bumped into. ]
Oh... Let me guess, it didn't go well. [ He gets the feeling she'd still be by the pool if it went swimmingly (no pun intended). ] You okay?
I'll get you naked later, when there's less of a crowd.
[ he did mention a certain balcony once or twice...]
I'm fine, but she might not be. She's not a fan of our partnership.
[ he did mention a certain balcony once or twice...]
I'm fine, but she might not be. She's not a fan of our partnership.
I really don't think there's a crowd... but you'll definitely be getting a private show later.
She wasn't exactly a fan the last time. [ He never really told Emma that though, not wanting her to feel awkward every time they passed each other whenever Clarke left their apartment. ] I'm sorry, I probably should have been there to introduce you. I guess I've been avoiding it.
She wasn't exactly a fan the last time. [ He never really told Emma that though, not wanting her to feel awkward every time they passed each other whenever Clarke left their apartment. ] I'm sorry, I probably should have been there to introduce you. I guess I've been avoiding it.
You're so damn good to me.
I know, but I expected it last time. [ last time was different. she stayed out of her way out of respect for what they were trying to build. she hadn't wanted to be that reminder to someone he cared about.] It's not your fault, Bell. It's not anyone's fault. I tried to give her some advice about how to get through all of this, but I'm probably the last person she wants to hear it from.
I know, but I expected it last time. [ last time was different. she stayed out of her way out of respect for what they were trying to build. she hadn't wanted to be that reminder to someone he cared about.] It's not your fault, Bell. It's not anyone's fault. I tried to give her some advice about how to get through all of this, but I'm probably the last person she wants to hear it from.
We're damn good to each other.
Advice kind of falls on deaf ears with her sometimes. I'll talk to her. I know you're said you're fine but that doesn't mean I'm fine with her making you feel uncomfortable.
Advice kind of falls on deaf ears with her sometimes. I'll talk to her. I know you're said you're fine but that doesn't mean I'm fine with her making you feel uncomfortable.
I got the sense that she was uncomfortable. Not just with our partnership, but with how much you matter to me. Things were tense - really, obviously tense. But she didn't do it on purpose.
And I won't pretend that you're not important to me.
And I won't pretend that you're not important to me.
It's because she doesn't know you. And if she's refusing to get to know you, that's not fair on you. If she knew you like I did, she'd know I was in safe hands.
You're important to me too. Raven gets that. So will Clarke.
You're important to me too. Raven gets that. So will Clarke.
I don't need her to get to know me. I just need her to understand that I'm not gonna let anything happen to her friend.
I'm sorry if things are weird the next time you see her. You've always known I'm not great at first impressions.
I'm sorry if things are weird the next time you see her. You've always known I'm not great at first impressions.
It's okay. You didn't do anything wrong. Thank you for defending what we have.
And you say you're not great at first impressions but I still remember after the first hour of talking to you on the ghost ship, thinking, wow, this woman's badass.
And you say you're not great at first impressions but I still remember after the first hour of talking to you on the ghost ship, thinking, wow, this woman's badass.
I get the feeling you'd do the same.
That was after you broke the ice, and probably around the same time I realized I wasn't going to throw you out.
That was after you broke the ice, and probably around the same time I realized I wasn't going to throw you out.
Of course I would.
You planned on throwing me out, huh? What happened to you making a run for it like you told Ruby?
You planned on throwing me out, huh? What happened to you making a run for it like you told Ruby?
Oh, there are men back home who can confirm I do both. Sometimes in rapid succession.
Oh, I believe you. I'm glad you went with the third option (getting to know me).
I should probably go talk to my friend. But I'm all yours later.
I should probably go talk to my friend. But I'm all yours later.
I'm glad you reminded me that was an option.
I'll see you when you get back, I'm gonna try to finish my book out on the balcony.
I'll see you when you get back, I'm gonna try to finish my book out on the balcony.
Just a little. [ He gets this pleased look on his face for bringing a laugh out of her, before realizing he's probably held her hand a little too long. It's dangerous territory - falling back into old habits with her - and he slowly pulls his hand away, not so fast that she'll think anything is wrong, but so he can push himself up from the bench to stand, his hands on his hips. ]
I probably stink. I'm gonna hit the shower... [ She might be willing to wait for him, so they can talk more after, but when Bellamy glances at his watch, he sees it's later than he expected it to be. ] Then I should probably head home, I promised Emma I'd cook tonight...
[ He recognizes he used the word 'home' which she might find weird. This isn't their home, but his apartment with Emma is almost like a comfort spot for him. It's a small slice of what having a normal life would feel like, when you ignore everything that's happening outside of it. ] 'Home' is quicker to say than 'apartment with my Dominant', you know? [ He shouldn't feel like he needs to justify his words, but he does anyway. ]
I probably stink. I'm gonna hit the shower... [ She might be willing to wait for him, so they can talk more after, but when Bellamy glances at his watch, he sees it's later than he expected it to be. ] Then I should probably head home, I promised Emma I'd cook tonight...
[ He recognizes he used the word 'home' which she might find weird. This isn't their home, but his apartment with Emma is almost like a comfort spot for him. It's a small slice of what having a normal life would feel like, when you ignore everything that's happening outside of it. ] 'Home' is quicker to say than 'apartment with my Dominant', you know? [ He shouldn't feel like he needs to justify his words, but he does anyway. ]
[ Well. ]
I just wanna say, from the bottom of my heart...
Thank you for giving me an excuse to spank you later.
I just wanna say, from the bottom of my heart...
Thank you for giving me an excuse to spank you later.
I know it's not the best time to point this out, but...
You never needed an excuse.
You never needed an excuse.
I know.
I gotta stop messaging you.
[ This is literally the texting equivalent of "you hang up"/"no, you". ]
I gotta stop messaging you.
[ This is literally the texting equivalent of "you hang up"/"no, you". ]
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